EDD on the 20th April, there was still no sign of the Little One wanting to make his appearance into the world. I had Braxton-Hicks contractions, but nothing irregular compared to what I have been having since I’ve started having them in my 8th month pregnancy.
No bloody show. No long-lasting contractions between short intervals. And most importantly, still no water break.
To be honest, I was beginning to be worried. No, God, please don’t induce me. I had a birth plan, which is to go au-natural all the way. No epidural.
At my last antenatal check up, my OBgyn advised me to re-visit him a day after my EDD if I was still pregnant. So I did.
Seeing my OBgyn on the following day, he said that I will need to be induced if my labour does not happen within 1 week.
- He spoke to me about the risks that the Little One will face if my pregnancy went overdue.
- He even asked if there is any particular date that I would like to choose within that week to be induced.
- He reminded me that if I were to be induced, it does not necessary means that I will deliver on the same day. It varies between every mothers, some may have their water break on the very same day, but some had to wait up to 3 days from the induction to the water break.
- And if labour still does not happen after pregnancy is induced, I will need to go through caesarean to have the baby out to avoid any risk to both of us.
I really appreciate that he pointed out all the facts to me and gave room for me to decide. I know that sooner or later the baby will have to come out. I told him that I was scared and have heard stories about how painful an induced pregnancy could be.
He said, labour is painful. Either it happened naturally, or induced, or a caesarean delivery, it will be painful. If it isn’t painful during the labour process, it will be painful during the healing process, like the case of a caesarean delivery. It all depends on how high your pain tolerance is. Some mothers can take it, some couldn’t and need to resort to an epidural.
He gave me some time to decide.
At 40 weeks and 1 day pregnant, I was literally done being pregnant. I was tired. I was feeling sores all over my body. I was exhausted. I was scared. Nervous. But at the same time, I just couldn’t wait any longer to meet the Little One.
Pushing aside all worries and surrendering myself to God’s hand, I told my OBgyn that I would like to be induced, the sooner the better. I was all like, “Let’s get this done and over with.”
I was admitted the same night, at 8pm at Columbia Asia Hospital.
After checking-in into my room, i was hooked up to the fetal monitoring system so that the baby’s heart rate and my uterus contractions could be monitored.
At 10pm, the OBgyn and the midwife walked in and spoke to me. It’s time for me to be induced, they said. The midwife had a huge tablet in a container in her hands.
Then the OBgyn said, “Lay down.” So I did.
“Open up your legs, like how it would be like when you are giving birth.”
I was like, err. “Are you telling me that the tablet is to be inserted into my vagina?”
“YES.” *insert mortified emoticon*
I was expecting a drip or a tablet that I will need to eat. Not this. *facepalm*
Clearly, I didn’t do my homework and read about induced pregnancy. HAHA. Apparently, a prostaglandin tablet was inserted into my vagina. It is a hormone-like substance that causes my cervix to ripen and helps to stimulate contractions. As the prostaglandin was inserted, the OBgyn also did a membrane sweep at the same time.
Once that was done, the midwife told me to get a good sleep as there may be chances for me to wake up in pain tomorrow morning if the contractions has started. I asked the midwife, “How long does it normally takes until my water break?”
“About 12 hours. Or else, we will insert another tablet and perform another membrane sweep.” *insert another mortified emoticon*
The next morning…
I woke up still pregnant. I had bubur mcD for breakfast. The midwife came in and hook me up to the fetal monitoring system. I had some contractions, but not strong enough to cause labour.
Sigh, baby baby come out already. Mommy can’t wait to see you.
The whole day was basically spent watching tv in the hospital room and taking an evening nap after lunch.
Fast forward to about 4pm, when I finally woke up from my nap, the midwife came in and hooked me up to the fetal monitoring system again. She said, “Your contractions are starting to look more frequent. The OBgyn will come and see you about 6pm later.”
So at 6pm, the OBgyn came in.
“OK, i had a look at your charts, how are you?”
“I’m good, but I feel like the contractions are getting longer, and I feel it here.” *points at an area underneath my lungs*
“Good. So are you ready? What I am going to do now is to manually break your water.” :O
Hubs was with me the whole day. I was suddenly filled with so much anxiety. Call my mom now, I told the Husband.
At 6.30 pm, my water was broken manually. Yes, the OBgyn inserted his fingers into my vagina. “You are already about 3-4 cm dilated, and I can feel his head.”
It felt like a gush of water flowing uncontrollably from beneath. I was wet, so so so wet but at the same time I suddenly had a feeling that I wanted to take a shit.
“Can I go berak?”, I asked the midwife.
“Yes, you can.”
The Husband helped me walk to the toilet. As I sat on the toilet bowl, I was in so much pain. The pressure to push something out of the anus was so strong, but nothing came out. Imagine my frustrations. :(
I grabbed on the Husband and hugged him tight as I felt a sudden wave of pain. I walked back to the bed but couldn’t find any comfortable position to lie down. So i stood at the edge of the bed.
Mom walked in, as she just arrived the hospital.
I grabbed the Husband, “Baby, I can’t take it. Call the nurse. I want an epidural.”
I was already crying, curled up on the bed. Mom said, “Shh, don’t cry.” I snapped at her and said, “Shut up, I’m in pain, how not to cry?!” (Sorry mommeh!)
The midwife came in and pushed me into the labour room for an epidural. As they were preparing for me, they checked how much I have dilated and was quite surprised to know that I was already 8-1/2 cm. So fast!! No wonder you look like you ARE in so much pain. It dilated twice the amount within just an hour, they said.
And right there and then, I had another strong urge to take a shit again. I told the midwife, I want to berak. She said, just let it out, we will clean it up for you. Oh mannnn, my worse fear came true.
I shit on the labour bed. I was so embarrassed, but I guess this is normal for them.
I was given the epidural and that was when everything went numb. Ahhh, relief~
The OBgyn came in and told me to follow what he tells me to do. Mom was with me, I call her my push assistance. :p
On the monitoring system, my baby’s heart beat was beginning to slow down. I became alarmed and scared. The OBgyn said the his cords are around his neck. i don’t know what the OBgyn did, but whatever it was, I am glad that he is very experienced in what he does and the baby is ok.
When he tells me to push, I pushed.
When he said, take 5, I relaxed.
When he said, push as long as you can, I took a deep breathe and push as long as my breathe could hold.
I haven’t had anything to eat since lunch and I was struggling to keep my energy. I was literally panting.
After about 5 pushes, mom exclaimed, “Oh I can see his head.” And after one hard, long push, Baby is finally out.
It’s a boy!
I called the Husband in. After the OBgyn cut the umbilical cord and deliverred the placenta, Baby was cleaned up and placed on my chest.
That moment. Was when all the pain that I endured just few minutes ago went away. It felt so surreal. Is this really ours. How did we made such beautiful baby? It’s truly amazing.
Baby was 3.65kg and I had a normal birth.
At 8.43pm, on 22nd April 2014, little baby Travis Lawai is born.
And he is such a darling. Thank you God for this precious gift that you have given to my family.
Here’s Travis a week later:
I am enjoying every moment being his Mom. :)